0:10
I just wanted to be less, like, less Saturdays, conversation, just to be able to talk all through the end.
2:24
I've chatted to, like, my fears that that might reinforce something like this is,
2:42
and this has to be this way, but it just can't handle anything else.
2:50
And to talk more and to experience some ideas, what boundaries are safe to be flexible.
3:27
I understand from both of us, there's, like, my mind is gone.
3:53
When we do open the literature and over, I'm a grinder because I can't paint anybody,
4:20
and then I was like, oh, but how do I know?
4:22
I was out there and I was like, oh, I created a program and it took me a little while to realize that's great that the program was looking for you,
4:35
but it turns out people disappear off ground, they're just as profusely from one.
4:42
And it's, like, the cart doesn't have to come for the horse.
4:49
There's this guy that appeared on my growth list, somebody that I've messaged before last year I'm a grinder,
5:02
he saw his profile and we, like, asked him, hey, maybe we could do two of this, he looks like a bad boy,
5:12
and he just looks like a bad boy, look.
5:13
And so, since he showed up on growth, he kind of misunderstood.
5:23
He could be a massage victim for it, but in that way, I feel that it's really safe.
5:41
But just more than anything on what else does have dialogue.
5:43
At the point that you don't realize is the fact that this whole grinder saying you can't see one and try to explain to you
6:12
that it's a bad thing to do, it's not different from the last time when it was stopped,
6:24
I'm not showing my mind, I'm showing my mind for it for a simple as when it was first,
6:36
I forget to say that, but whatever you want, you could let me hear that in my biggest fear,
7:04
it is that you seem to be unable to, there's part of this whole sexuality thing that you don't keep it to yourself,
7:20
and a lot of share, and a bond with it, and then, and then, reasonably to, what you're talking about,
7:49
I'm talking about finding out that you were using a grinder from your fear,
7:59
a few patching up the story of what I believe you believe,
8:08
oh no, this is for research purposes, it's not doing anything, it's not,
8:16
and I'm just telling you my side of things, and so that makes my fear to get out of control.
8:37
I fluctuate through like 22 coming here and say what I'm going to trust you,
8:52
and I'm going to have to say, let's just go back to the core,
8:56
and it's also an app, it's an awesome app, it's a great thing,
9:08
it's a great pressure, it's something you should use,
9:27
and you seem ready, you know, not only that,
9:54
and you see, yesterday I'm like, this is hot, can I jack off and get off the train?
9:59
Yeah, it's hot, I can't, it's more no more than that,
10:02
like I was like, I told you last time, I told you what they were finishing at,
10:07
and I had a fan seat, and you were like, that's hot, I'm glad you shared that with me,
10:11
so I'm like, I didn't share it for years here,
10:13
so I think this is the plan, and how we open up this,
10:16
and that's, do you realize right now that conversations are into this,
10:21
this right now, it's the first time we use the word fantasy,
10:26
that up until now you weren't describing the word.
10:30
So I had this idea about this guy that,
10:33
I used to have a fantasy with him,
10:36
but if you see the difference,
10:37
you were saying, and you were talking about,
10:45
I'm not going to be upset, I mean,
10:47
I wish I could have this idea of how hot it would be,
10:54
the style of life, to what it would look like,
10:57
to what the story would be,
11:00
it was different to say, I had this fantasy of,
11:05
this fantasy stays in fantasy world,
11:08
but it's not like, it seemed like...
11:11
Oh, I didn't mean, no, when I said fantasy,
11:13
I mean, it's something that's hot,
11:15
that maybe I would want to enact someday,
11:17
or maybe we were a rope player, like working fantasy.
11:29
That's what I say sometimes,
11:30
it's like, you just tremble,
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you step, you skip 100 steps before,
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because now you're talking about pain from what I've said,
11:53
it's like you're having a fantasy that you'd like