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Hello
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Good morning
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How's our way face your makeup? Oh, it's bright. Oh here. Oh, is it? Oh, yes
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Yeah, it's definitely not cold here
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Yeah, I saw you had 90 degree leather. Yes
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It's um, it's actually a little stuffy. There's there's at least a little bit. It's 150 so
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Things are a little crazy
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So Kaya
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Some I had a journal in tree that was on my iPad that said I was that was obsessing about Gustavo
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today and because I was
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Rube, you know our conversation about the rubber band sort of thing
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And he asked me a question and he was able to read
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I've been obsessed with Gustavo. He's like
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Since Gustavo was the first boy
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He's like you're in touch with Gustavo
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Like no, it's a different
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Where's you?
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From he's a good he's a escort
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How much have you paid him and I said ten thousand and he's like holy shit
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Um, I want to divorce
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I said okay
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and
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Then later he asked, you know, at how many times do you see plenty
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at least 15 and
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And he's a really nice guy and I wanted to tell you that I was waiting for the right moment. He's like yeah, right
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You aren't gonna tell me
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And so we kind of
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We're in this divorce stance since Sunday since Christmas and
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Yesterday
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It's been about 24 hours that we've been thinking about divorce. We looked at
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What are we going to sell, you know, how are we going to put the apartment on the market?
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How are we going to divide assets reached out to the worst lawyer?
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and
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He's been having a lot of sadness and a lot of
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being crushed
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That I'm not able to that I'm not willing to choose him over
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a 19 year old and
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And
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Yesterday, I you know, we had a talk that was very
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Matter of fact and in vulnerable from both sides and I said, you know, I don't
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I don't I am willing to give this another try
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but
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We have to do something different
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because the other tries haven't worked and
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I do want to to share the rest of my life you and I
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The idea of dissolving everything is very sad and this is my family. This is the only family I really have
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And so we we began talking about, you know, maybe
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maybe there's a
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An attempt ahead
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that we can and because I was feeling something different. I was feeling a lot of vulnerability from him
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and a lot of
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We had been feeling since I arrived here a lot of distance and resentment sort of feeling and
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That's why I hadn't shared anything about what have been going on with me during these 45 days and
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You know, he sees I assured him that if he had asked that I slept with him
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They would have absolutely said yes
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But he
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He sees it as
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I was keeping that secret in that relationship was warmed in secrecy
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And his even though he did say at one point you can fuck whoever you want
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When he left and I said I want you to know that I'm