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What's really stuck with me from our conversation here Friday or whenever it was, when
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you said something about being afraid to be alone, you said it can't be worse than this. It's
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very powerful to be. It's not loving to want to hold someone in something that's causing suffering.
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It's not very nice. I'm afraid to explain. You said you said you said you said the things that I know
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did.
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The other side, of course, is a good one. He loves another kind of dog.
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We'll never know if she will really return the money here or not, but there's so much experience.
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We'll never know if she will really return the money here or not, but there's so much experience.
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We'll never know if she will really return the money here or not, but there's so much experience.
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And to me it was like...
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And to me it was like...
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I was wrong about that.
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I have to say I knew it was very hard to hear about it.
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I know what words you use, but there's something around what you jeopardize on the culture of art.
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But I could, in a way, in a way to mean trying to keep a level of leadership that I have with me.
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And that's where old patterns of feelings of hearing and putting on priority are not for hearing that.
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I knew I was ready to try to do this.
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This and our relationship between me and the past, or the past, is in my eyes trying to get as much as I can from here.
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Yeah, friendship will do for me, but that's where we get to meet through.
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I feel like the compatibility of our values and what you would want for your future.
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It's like one of the things that I'd like to explore on some happy settle in my place here in theatre and music.
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And here's a place for it.
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To me, is that if I'm one of the leads that I'm going to be on the globe,
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and I know that I will never, most likely, never be an actor famous actor.
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And I don't know that, but I'm saying that we have experimented with being open,
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and having our own sexual adventures, and that we haven't realized that you're not capable of separating.
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Not getting emotional involved and being used and manipulated.
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And I'm not saying that I relationship and the future should be closed.
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So you weren't literally talking about a desire you have to be theatre.
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No one do have a desire, but I know that I don't have a talent or have the years to build a career where I can be a star.
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This metaphor that I'm using to talk about was being able to handle the relationship with Sam and keeping the priority
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and having not getting obsessed or similar like drawn to the world that you don't want to share with me.
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I agree with my experiences with compensating in a whole ways.
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I have been, anytime, I lose my sense of when boundaries are crossed, and I lose the sense of whether someone's acting out of interest in me,
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versus their own psyched with interest and financial interest.
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And I insist, and that's combined with my inability to take know as an answer and assistance that I can have my way,
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and somehow also protect our relationship at the same time by keeping a secret as an disaster.
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And I don't know.
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You've been pointed by compensating things.
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You haven't mentioned that you've been successful.
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You haven't compensated long-term sexual encounter with it.
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But also enough for one person that still you were doing a lot of work and seeing him.
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And you wasn't really that way that came from running out or whatever.
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Climbsome.
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Climbsome.
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But it was not also healthy for you.
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It's not a good thing there.
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It's based on what you have shared with me, or 80% using it or 20% of it.
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Or do you want me to go there and do not do anything like that?
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Or do you know school?
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No, I'm not saying that I don't have an tendency to get obsessed with any boy.
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But what went terribly wrong in our relationship wasn't infatuation.
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It was secrecy.
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Yeah.
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Exactly.
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And I'm going to say this.
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And I hope that you can put yourself in my city.
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The program I have gone out of my way.
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And as I've told you before, I ignored all kinds of red flags because I wanted me to get out.
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And I was constantly putting you first and thinking about you this entire time.