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It is rainy here, which I'm kind of loving.
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I was very depressed about it becoming rainy because it was sunny for several days and
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I was enjoying the beach and then I knew it was coming, so it was like five or six days
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of nothing but rainy.
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But I got plenty of sun and then this morning I was like, it sounds nice, there's something
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about it that I was like, expecting it to be just miserable and it's nice and fun.
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We're able to meet the moment with a more open heart instead of that, we don't want
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it to be.
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Right.
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This is not part of my plan.
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And I'm going to fly every step of it.
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Right, and constantly be obsessed about, surely the weather's changed, let me see now
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if it's updated.
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There will be a sunny day that's appeared.
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I am.
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I am.
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I am.
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Kayao is in the bedroom and he's like, do you want to have therapy and living room?
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I've got enough to.
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And he's like, well, I have my headphones on so if you hear me moving, I'm not listening
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and I was like, it's nice, this is a, it's just a more, it's sort of my, this is my work
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station.
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Oh, look, Graham, you've got it all right there.
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And then I kind of hang out in the area and I, so it's, it's my corner, I'm biting
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in the bedroom that I was standing in.
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It's also like you, those are your piano bands.
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Exactly.
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And I love this too.
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It's been a really good, at least a good 24 hours, but it's been a really good few days.
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I, last night after my meeting, I was, during the meeting, actually I started, this meeting
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that I've been going to more regularly.
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It's a big meeting and there's at least 20 people there usually and sometimes 40.
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And I used to feel so nervous about sharing because it's not my language and there's, there's
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no way to take everybody in and it just felt overwhelming.
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And I used to, and it's also a strange format because the shares are all, it's like a lottery.
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And when you walk in and give you a number and when your number comes up, if your number comes up,
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you have seven minutes to share.
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And if it doesn't come up, then you don't get sure that day.
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And I used to spend at least half the meeting trying to figure out what I would share when I
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started.
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But then there were like three or four days where I was called first, like the first person
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out of the gate and I was like, and I sort of got used to just sharing off the cup.
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And then since then it's been like maybe I'll spend three or four minutes trying to get some
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thoughts in order about what I might talk about.
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But then I sort of listened, which is different than multitasking, planning, and this was like,
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it was my last choice meeting because I liked the small meeting.
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But now I'm like, I'm embracing it, I'm really, last night I was, as it became clear that I wasn't going to be
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really, I started really, I thought I was beaming.
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And like leaning forward and really paying attention to what people were sharing.
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And there was so much, so many good things shared to me.
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It was like, it isn't all about me sharing and really getting a chance to
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soak up what people were sharing.
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But I feel like I was participating to even with just looks at other people who are nodding and resonating
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and I feel like you're a part of because of the way you collectively react towards being shared.
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And then I was coming home and I was just like, I haven't felt this good all year.
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Like, where I was in a good mood.
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And there wasn't any particular thing that was making me happy.
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It was just, there was Kyohen and Dask B yesterday.
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And there was nothing bad, which was a huge relief.
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It didn't answer the questions either, but anytime we have a little Dask B,