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at the top and coming to your life for the first time it was that good, or looking up at
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him and he was beautiful, your brain just fired and said, wow, this is amazing.
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In that portion of use, that I think is really, really old, that helps you survive the
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pain that you grew up in. It did not want to lose that feeling when it owned that feeling,
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you've been doing whatever you needed to do to try and keep that forever, but it wasn't okay,
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I'm going to drop everything that's happened with what's not happening, but it's very
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funerary to do it, because how can I manage all of this stuff? I keep the things that are really good,
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but I also, and I'm not in print there too, if you want to bring your brain back from
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I was about to just go off and marry a person, which isn't okay. If you go back and look at
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your journal entries, I'm going to figure out how to keep this person in my circle, and I'm
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going to figure out how to keep Kyle happy while he's off getting high and having everybody else
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down. I was bringing up the significant shift in y'all's relationship, not just from the
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experience with marijuana, but now being in a much more open y'all's relationship isn't based on
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personal. You hung it based on personal? I heard y'all's isn't based on personal.
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It's all sexual, and it's from the situation. At this stage, your relationship has changed,
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and it's based on the research, I mean, I did just profound speech before you close up,
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but I was really doing that really well, and I've been, I've been, I've been,
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the relationship has been based on companionship, on history, on those, you're comfort of
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laying there and knowing that y'all are there for each other and care for each other,
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but it's actually, you guys have been depending on other outlets for those things to be taken care
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of, which is true for most gay couples, and I think actually quite a lot of gay couples
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after a number of years. He's defining the vulnerabilities that he's still bringing up is
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hey, what about me, am I going to be homeless and ruthless and am I going to come home and not
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know your year anymore through vulnerabilities? That's really a reflection of the change,
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it's happened where there have been more boys in trying to maintain the same level of companionship
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in the history and such, but it's, and then with the marijuana and, and yes, a little obsession.
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And I just, the only thing I've been, I was still in a whole bunch of years, and the brain is like,
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haven't I learned why, why hasn't he, he's been given the answer to his life, that
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lives don't work, I know he can't do it, or maybe he's not even sure if I'm going to do it for you.
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I think that's some of the middle of the life. Maybe that's why,
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that time of your life was like when you were five and six, and that is a primal time in our brains,
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or maddened, that says this is how you should write a world. When it gets that takes an active decision
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and adult brain saying, no, it would be easy. Have you? So have you met others that feel like they have
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a terminal line code, and they're sort of like, how do I talk about something?
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That if you're honest with, if you're that they're going to advantage you, I mean, do you,
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are you away? Ain't you? But that's the core of the energy growing update. If I tell you who I am,
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and then on top of that dynamic for you was with a really big lot of money and say,
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the core, it's not something to say, okay, how am I going to deal with this, how am I going to take it away?
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How am I going to? I remember about a month ago, or maybe a month to be saying, I was saying something
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about how to break. It's like I wanted to, to make a lot and I was struggling about how,
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how to do that, and you said something like, well, I think we're just going to have to be a concession.
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No, I'm like a, hey, I'm, you know, like you were a concession, and I was like, oh,
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I'm sure there was another way. I like the outcome, and I wanted it the way.
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And yeah, if I just approached any of it like, what's this, but when I tell you, because you know,
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about, without telling me everything.
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You know what's right, it says, I mean, you know, I do have to wonder about it,
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it's just like, is it easier on the city, because I was like, well, I think,
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you know what I was asking, so there's only like, what, you know, the online,
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like, you know, the quality of drugs that I was trying to qualify for, you know,
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like, okay, nevermind, do you know what I was like, but, oh, okay, we don't want to go.
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Very good, it is that, it's been a flexing journey for me through some of these conversations,
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so let me tell you something, it's been a flexing journey for my addiction to go through these
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last few days, hearing you talk about pie, and how that's the best thing you've struggled.
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And as he sort of surges his brain for padding, he's trying to explain this, and there's various
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things related to addiction, it's come up as like, well, it seems like, what the last time
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he said, it seems like I'm going to do a movie to see what happens, and I was like, well,
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you're still seeing this as a problem, I'm just noticing a pattern, and when you're really
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serious about what's happening, it seems like it doesn't happen, can they just spend about almost half
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our relationship with you for the serious person's mind, and yesterday it was, it was the first time
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he said, I don't think he needs to talk about pie, and that's true, really.